219/365 days SOBER
By Sandra Dee
January 20th, 2020
January 20th, 2020
I came across this post of Sandra and I felt strongly to share it. So I simply asked her. She loved the idea of both inspiring others to take that step or to encourage them to keep going even when things get really hard.
Than you Sandra!
Than you Sandra!
This hasn’t been easy |
I'm a huge fan of IPAs + sports The Chicago-an in me doesn’t really understand this decision However, it was necessary For now ... I’ve been in the hospital 3x for alcohol related instances
Event #1. Freshman year of college. Grieving a break up. Homesick. A friend had just committed suicide. Had a BAC .36. According to my friend Google, ”A BAC in the range of .37 to .40 or higher can cause death.” 
Event #2. Junior year of college. Went to the Pub. Had about 2 beers. Went to the bathroom with friends. Put my drink down. And that’s all I remember. Besides my sweet, loving friends getting me to the hospital safe and sound. 
Event #3. December 15, 2018. My birthday. In a loving relationship. Happy. Life was good. Decided it would be safe to take some addy. And then rip tons of Vegas bombs...aka Red Bull. And again, my friends saved me. Getting me to a hospital. Where my heart rate was not easy to control. 
I sat with all three events for some time. Shame. Guilt. Embarrassment. 
How could this happen? Not once, three times. I wasn’t even trying to numb anything the last time. Well, ... so I thought. 
Turns out, when I dove deep into my shadow side There was a part of me that felt invincible A part of me that “didn’t care” if something happened to me 
A part of me still deeply wounded from my childhood It wasn’t until I found EFT It wasn’t until the man I deeply loved left me Wasn’t until I hit rock bottom Til I sat with my own bullshit My own fears 
Sought help Found forgiveness That I came home to my body |
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And decided this body deserves SO much more than I’ve settled for
For so long, I felt like my body wasn’t mine Like I had little control over it Dissociated so hard for years Sexual abuse has that sorta impact on you But getting sober brought me a whole new sense of being Being home in my body, Giving it the respect it deserves Has been life changing Actually FEELING my feels Listening to my gut |
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Original post: https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10157899034103834&set=a.10150722497538834&type=3&theater
